mama still a beyotch

Just when I feel like mama's not too bad, she goes and acts like a queen bitch again.

She's stopped drinking so hard, and that has really made her much more pleasant to be around. But she still drinks quite a bit, and sometimes I'm almost certain she's had a few before coming to work. Tonight started out alright, but it wasn't long before she was being exceptionally unpleasant. Almost back to the hard drinking days.

One of my most favorite customers of all time is undergoing tons of tests right now. His doctors think he has cancer of the throat or something. He's a hard drinking, hard partying salaryman. He works hard and definitely plays even harder. So on the one hand it's just time to pay the piper. You can't live a life so selfish and so reckless and expect not to have any consequences on your health. But I'm still worried about him. I can't write him a get-well-soon letter though, because that would get him in all kinds of trouble with his long-suffering wife. There's a famous song by the Taiwanese pop princess Teresa Teng called "Aijin" which means "mistress." Customers love this song, and the song talks about how she's not able to walk with her man in public but she still loves him. I always think "shut the f*** up!" when I hear that song, but I guess that's kind of what I feel like at the moment with this customer. I'm not his mistress or anything, but I do care about him, and I wish I could tell him I care and I'm praying for his health.

I feel kind of sick because a customer took me out after work and fed me tons of sea urchin. I LOVE sea urchin, it's just so delicious. It's like delicious butter. But you're not supposed to eat so much of it. I feel like puking.

Best Friend came to the club to pick up some stuff I had, and she met Dancer Girl. It was weird, because I feel like they know each other, but in fact they had never met before. They both said "oh, I've heard so much about you." Best Friend was acting kind of awkward. She used to thrive in hostess club environments, but I guess they trigger more than a few unpleasant memories now.

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